the start

Niv told me to write. The therapist told me to journal.

He started on me when I emailed the following:

I wish i'd traveled with mom. we went on vacations, but she would've loved a trip. a long, grimy trip.

instead, I confirm morning star is the brand of sausage links she can't find on peapod.

and, again, when I emailed: 
unsure if i'm wanting to take advantage of being young and unencumbered or if wanting to run from mom's sickness (you do not need to reply to that)

My mom is dying. painfully.